Wednesday, July 12, 2006 Y
i took mrt home juz now.. i'm sick n tired of the songs in my ipod.. i used the time to do some thinkings..
it may be very difficult to always put ourselves in their shoes, however.. i do think that it's rather cruel not to think abt other ppl's feelings.. it's not abt pity, it's abt respect..
i think i'm into depression mood again.. which i dint have it in the past.. ever since i stepped into poly, problems are coming one after another.. i do wan to be the happy ger.. but.. i cant pretend to be optimistic all the time..
after meeting up with LC, i reali wish we could all wear back our Deyi uniform, going to sch early in the morning for silence reading.. during recess, me n rina would go over 4/8 cls to gossip n updating each other of the latest news.. n being the most updated rui yong, he'll forever be the one who update us.. since the sch is small, once ther r any news, it'll spread from 4/5 to 4/9..
i miss the times when rina complained to me abt her band thingy..
i miss the times when we asked ppl to help us reserved the cha peng..
i miss the times when we played bball at rui yong's house there..
things became much more complicated den before.. more thinkings, more troubles.. i detest having bad moods, having moodswings.. ppl ard me bound to suffer, esp jun n my mama..
when i'm alone at home, i complained of loneliness.. when my mama returns, n if i'm having fire on my head, she'll have to suffer.. poor mama.. i dun wanna be rude to her, but i simply cant control myself.. n plus her endless naggings, so i chose to ignore her.. i'm mean isnt it.. i'm not a person who reali express my love on the outside.. there r times when i wanna hug her n let her sense my love for her, but i juz couldnt do it.. things would be better when i'm younger.. i would still give her a gd nite kiss on the cheek..
she dotes on me.. whenever she wanna be the angel n give me extra allowance, i start to be the devil who spends on clothes.. how i wish i'm the person who was mentioned in sean's blog..
HEADLINES
18 YEARS OLD POLY STUDENT and PART TIME GARANG GUNI
picked a winning lottery ticket
whilst collecting
OLD NEWSPAPERS.
i dun mind being garang guni when i can pick up the lottery by chance.. i wanna give my parents gd life.. for as long as they live...
11:37 PM -
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