Friday, August 11, 2006 Y
today had our MWA paper.. though it was the final test of MWA, it marks the start and motivates us to study better for the other modules.. paper was rather simple especially for the essay questions, coz they are purely taken from the tutorial questions, wat i duno was the codes.. anyway, it's over n i shall concentrate on the other papers..
i was on the way to sch.. took out my notes, but mind was somewhere again.. everytime i took bus to sch, there would always be some negative thinkings.. i felt like being used.. by a fren.. dun have to guess who, coz i seldom talk abt him in my blog.. i cant tahan being the one who always initiated to ask him out, to talk to him, to start a topic.. i may be talkative, but somehow ther's bound to be communication between one another.. whenever he needs to ask some serious question or want me to help him do smth, he starts to sms me.. i may be replying him in a jokingly manner.. but deep inside i felt that whenever he encounters some probs, den i'll receive his sms.. i duno whther he's consider my fren.. i have no idea..
i asked ppl, trust or honesty, which one betteR? some may choose honesty, but personally, i chose trust.. i think is the trust which leads to honesty.. becoz, if i trust that person, i would tell him everything about me and this is honesty.. some might said with honesty, u gain trust.. in the 1st place, if there isn't any trust, would u bother to give a damn to watever he said? i mean for eg, i trust u, so i would tell u everything about everything, including my darkest secret.. however, if i dun trust u, i would come up with millions of reasons to refuse to tell u anything about everything.. as for honesty, for eg, u r being honest to me, but i chose not to trust u, den u also lan lan.. this is my deepest thoughts la, not to refer to anyone in particular..
next to trust is understanding.. be it r'ship or frenship, of coz understanding each other is impt.. but understanding one person isn't easy.. it isn't easy at all.. so.. being honesty stil stands next to trust for me..
after paper, we went to proceed on our WDA proj.. but ard 3 plus, no mood alr.. so we decided some places for chilling.. we board on bus 74, wanna ask them go ice cube de.. but too far for yihui la.. so we went to kap lo.. ya, the 6 bitress (?????????????????) again.. bth lo.. 6 bitress come tgt stil can do wat.. bitch la.. i admit we r full of crap n laughter.. n thanks to bd, i keep laughing non stop for watever stupid reasons..
at night met LC ppl for a small gathering la.. came my house for steamboat.. no this is not again, coz i nv had steamboat with them at my place before.. we had chats, we too have laughter.. we shared memories.. coffee, chocolate, orange n milk.. the sec sch life, the childishness..
when they were preparing the food, the arguments exchanged btw yong n yan.. woo.. like da qing ma qiao.. so cute.. den got one person zuo bo, den joce n rina also helped out in the kitchen while i prepare the steamboat.. i enjoyed the moments with them.. planning for a bbq soon.. thanks our only guy who washed the dish and prepare everything.. u r reali a great guy.. i seldom c guys so enthu to do all the housework.. u rthe best la ! den talked about clubbing.. veron said cocco latte wasn't fun.. next time i'm gonna jio her to phuture, she should prefer that more ba.. it's tiring to go sch early in the morning from 8 to 4 plus.. like working hours.. wth.. if reali cannot tahan hor, i help u write complain letter to MOE ok.. i'm super auntie de.. =)
i've negotiated with jun le, he agreed that i can go after my exams.. wat can i say about him ne.. he's reali a nice guy.. ok, i'm not trying to praise my bf.. coz i normally definitely wouldnt do that.. for all u ppl know, he wasn't at all romantic, n we had our daily rountine every wkends which was watching movie, singing k or juz going dinner, definitely with his frens..
but he was with me all this while.. on sat when er jie had not returned home since late at night, he woke up n helped me contact er jie, went into her msn with me n helped me typed all i wan to type.. not only that, he stil drove me home right away..
reached my place, den er jie called and he drove me to serangoon to fetch my sis.. on the way home, my niece was stil slping, so jun helped me go kopitiam bought fish soup for her, while me n er jie came back home 1st.. intended to go out on a happy sunday, but stayed at my place till 6 plus, in the end no time go out.. though he complained, everything was over after a while..
on wed, i went zouk with ling, jasmine, joey and ash.. it was cool ya.. we went phuture.. den to zouk.. zouk was playing remix version of "stand up for singapore".. it was damn cute la, played for abot 10 sec den the rest of the crowd helped to cont the song.. dance dance squeeze squeeze.. ard 3 plus, we went off.. it was raining heavily outside.. either i take cab home or jun come to fetch us home.. i called him, he was playing game.. n it was alr 3 plus.. so he came to fetch us home..
ya, he fetched joey back to serangoon, her doorstep.. den to ling's place and lastly to jasmine place.. surprisingly with no complains.. the only complaint he had was that he forgot to step on the brake when driving on a hump and caused his car fly a little..
i do have my moodswings.. especially when i'm unhappy with my frens or families.. poor him, he had to suffer.. however, he nv blew his top.. ok la, sometimes did complain that my pms far too jia lat la.. other den that, he also try to make me simmer down..
from all my past entries, i dint mention jun at all.. but this time, i reali think he's a nice guy..
LASTLY.. ?????????! ! ! CONGRATULATIONS TO MY FREN WHO FOUND HER HAPPINESS. .TREASURE EVERY MOMENT U HAVE WITH HIM.. do more romantic stuff la.. but dun tell me!! i wont be envious of u !!
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