Thursday, October 26, 2006 Y
wanted to post some pics of wher i went like vivo city and settlers' cafe.. the pics of those who i went with and wat we played.. however.. i wasnt in the mood to post all these.. perhaps next time.. becoz i've promised to dedicate one entry specially to my fren.. from msn fren to fren to very good fren.. and now.. this entry is specially for him..
i know his name thru yingming.. the 1st fren of wenjun's i ever met was yingming.. that time me, jun and him were playing pool at the katong plaza.. he was telling me abt jinming.. and he asked me whether i know who the hell is he.. of coz i dun.. well.. he replied "u'll c him soon.. coz he's mc's best fren.."
hmm.. ok ok den.. i look forward to meeting him ya.. one fine day in 2004.. our 1st meeting at bugis.. he was with jun after buying the PC stuff.. did we greet each other?? i dun rem.. but one thing for sure.. we dint talk to each other at all.. not a single word.. it's ok.. wat a dao guy.. mayb we very man shou la..
den subsequently.. i met all all of jun's frens.. the one who left me the deepest impression was this particular fren.. but i deem him as acquaintance.. is cher boon.. coz he's the 1st in my dislike list.. the 1st time i met him.. was jun playing pool with him.. one look at him.. n i knew it.. "fuck off.. better get out of my sight".. he super zhuai.. super super dislike him.. the champion in my dislike list.. but nvm, he's not impt..
wat impt was that.. jm actually falls under my dislike list too.. right under cher boon.. becoz of a misunderstanding ya..
those were the times when jun just gotta his driving licence.. den there's this particular day.. jun got into an accident.. at the same time, jm having prob with his fren.. i duno whther i should go into details.. but anyway.. there's misunderstanding between him and jun.. of coz i would side jun.. not becoz he's purely my bf.. is becoz i duno any of his frens well except zm know a little more..
den jun n jm started to drift apart becoz he thot jun dun wanna help him.. but is that jun got his own probs.. den i was like.. "y jm like that de.." n this is the beginning i put him under my dislike list..
after a while.. the misunderstanding was cleared.. but then.. that doesnt change my impression of him la.. he stil falls under my list.. but stil not too bad la.. i dint show him attitudes.. as for the champion.. i ji tao dun give face.. coz he reali too zhuai, zhuai until i bth.. n he managed to stir up the evil devil in me.. good for him ya..
wat pulls me and jm tgt was a chat in msn.. that particular night.. jun was aslp.. i was using his desktop when jm starts talking to me.. well.. he intended to talk to jun de la.. is i dint sign out so i used his msn instead.. at 1st we started crapping a while and den duno y.. get into serious matters..
our ever 1st msn chat.. i told him abt my family.. most probably i was too desperate and couldnt find a single soul at that point of time, so i turned to him.. well.. i mean.. i wouldnt wanna talk to someone i dun reali like right.. but then.. after crapping a while.. he's not sooo bad la.. is i misunderstood him..
that was the night when he stayed up and chatted with me.. i'm thankful ya.. he gave me advises.. shared his experiences.. gave me encouragement and of coz his listening "eyes"..
next.. he gotta my msn.. how we started our chat in msn was i wanna get songs from him.. or he wanna get songs from me.. once in a while.. he would ask me how's my life.. and i start to tell him the happenings ard me..
maybe is becoz he knows nth abt my outside life, which makes him even more approachable..
every now and then.. when i met up with prob.. the 1st one to approach would be him..
wat pulls us closer was this blog of mine.. i changed my blogskin to wang zi bian qing wa.. den that time we were both very enthu abt this show.. den i told him excitedly.. "eh.. go c my blog !! the skin very nice and sweet !! "
i thot it was juz a causal remark.. and i totally forgot abt it.. but i dint wan any of jun's frens to know that i got a blog.. a space wher i typed down all my personal feelings and the happenings ard me.. i dint wan his frens to know more things abt me.. i wan them to know me as "wenjun's gf", that's all..
but too bad.. he became a regular of my blog.. and all the more i would turn to him whenever i'm feeling moody.. becoz he'll always be the pang guan zhe.. who c things more clearly as i do.. den he'll start lending his helping hand and listening "eyes"..
our msn frenship lasted for months.. in msn, i always talked more compared to face-to-face.. y is that so?? becoz he got a history.. which every of his frens rem.. and i dun think i wanna go into details.. that was y we always remained as msn frens only..
but then.. we proceeded to sms frens recently.. it was on 27 aug, 2358 when i sent him my 1st sms.. n it was becoz of making cookies.. i stil rem it was laine's mei mei 1-yr-old birthday that i suddenly got the feel to make cookies.. i also told jm i'll make them so in order not to break my promise.. i went to buy the ingredients and straight away start on them when i reached jun's house..
but then.. i couldnt get them harden so my 1st sms to him was ask him how to get my cookies to harded.. that was when we started our smsing.. ok fine.. everything turns out ok.. we cont chatting online and sms..
until on that day.. when i finally met up with jun's frens.. i was so excited to let them try my 1st attempt cookies.. instead jm gave me cold shoulder.. hurt and sad was how i felt... after tat.. things got worse isnt it? we went roller blading.. he chose to ignore me.. it's ok.. words can hurt, actions can kill.. i rather he said smth mean to me ya..
den i reali cant tahan.. becoz things happened too sudden.. i duno wat caused the drift.. i started to lose trust.. started to feel that he isnt my fren after all.. den i talked to him..
3 sept.. we cleared our 1st "obstacle".. we promised similar things wont happen again.. but then.. it's stil hurtful.. until now if i think back.. how would he do such thing to a ger who brings up her 1st attempt cookies excitedly to let him taste..
12 sept.. a wk passed.. here comes our 2nd "obstacle".. me and theose nice guys met up for a movie.. and my mood wasnt that good.. so i started showing out and caused him to moodswing too.. n those were the awkward moments.. i dint even feel like having steamboat with him and his frens..
and we solved it too.. coz i took the initative to talk to him.. this could reali be the last time we ever had arguments.. becoz after that.. we became even closer and better... can say is wu suo bu tan la..
since den.. we started hanging out.. as a group.. n we no longer "hide" our frenship.. we make it open.. becoz there isnt anything wrong ya.. juz becoz he got history den cannot lu mian meh.. and his frens started saying we zou de tai close.. but then.. we know we wont cross the frenship line..
we treasure each other more.. we dun keep things to ourselves.. watever how we felt.. we say out.. this is the key to frenship.. truthful.. we seldom have any arguments now..
during the thai trip, i'm glad we've solved all the probs before going there.. if not.. how am i going to enjoy? how is he going to enjoy? wanna avoid this avoid that.. so xin ku.. anyway.. it was a real fun.. i enjoyed.. truly enjoyed.. thanks to the 8 guys.. though he said smth hurtful but then.. aiya, suan le la.. i dun take it to heart anymore.. juz that i'll be more careful with words now so that the 4-letter-word wont come out again..
the most memorable day that i wont forget for life is 21 Oct 2006.. Lee Hom's Concert.. 1stly i reali wanna say thanks to jun for allowing me go with his fren ALONE.. becoz he was having duty.. he couldnt go with me.. den i was like thinking all ways to let him know i wanted to go so badly.. and he actually say i could go with his fren, ALONE.. i thot he would be jealous.. but he said only this once.. he can accept it..
soo.. i went with jm to the concert.. yeah.. we were enjoying.. enjoying to the fullest.. before we went for the concert, i stil dint get into super high spirit.. but after the concert.. i was super high la.. like hyper active, bo dong er leh.. those were the memories.. strolled until 4 am den went home...
lastly.. i wanna say.. i reali enjoyed the times playing, teasing and those stupid arguments with u.. i hope our frenship will always remain this way.. if one day we were to drift.. these are all the memories we can fall back on and bring us back close again.. =)
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