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Tuesday, January 02, 2007 Y

i'm glad that bitress were "anything" frens..

today supposingly was going for sakae becoz zm had sudden craving for that.. upon reaching, there isnt any buffet.. den jun wanted to leave straight away.. i udst.. coz we were rather broke.. perhaps the way he said it, the tone, the style, had made zm damn pissed with him..

this wasnt the 1st time.. but this is his style, his character.. sometimes say things without thinking.. i dun blame him, i'm juz angwee.. when we were having dinner with his family, he did the same thing again.. coz his cousin getting married, den i whisper to him say i'll be sick on that day.. and he juz say out.. his parents were there.. i was reali paiseh ya..

of coz, i wasnt happy.. den i scolded him, say he always lidat.. den i stil say "in front of ur frens u also lidat, dun later one day they boycott u den u know.." and... he thot his frens told me smth.. but kinda gd to let him know now before they reali intend to boycott him..

and then..

i had a damn bloody moodswing..

i know it wasnt simply a moodswing..

not becoz of the approaching of my period..

not becoz of someone who diao me on the street..

not becoz of someone i know offended me..

not becoz of jun's attitude..

i thot i could hide my feelings well..

i mean not to show my moodswings in front of his frens..

but today... i failed..

i showed the ugly side of me..

i'm being too sensitive becoz .......................................

i'm being xiaoqi becoz ...............................................

i felt inferior becoz ....................................................

i felt insignificant becoz ............................................

i felt useless becoz .....................................................

i felt moody becoz .....................................................

i even thot of going MIA..

eventually one day if i cant get over my own barrier..

please leave me alone..

i wanna go to a place wher no one can find me..

i think alot..

i will hu si luan xiang..

[Pisces
The only thing that can be said about you dreamers is that you appear even more attractive when angry. You are very sensitive to others’ feelings, so you rarely hurt them. But when others tend to hurt you, then things take a nasty turn. You will yell and use harsh words and feel inclined to shake everything and everyone up.

Your creative imagination is at its best when angry, and you tend to get pretty dramatic. When upset, you refuse to listen to reason and wish to be left alone. But once you calm down, you repent your tantrums and seek forgiveness. SO nobody can be upset with you for too long..]

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