some ppl read my previous entry.. had mistaken the content of it..
i was referring to 2 person..
the 1st one in the first few paragraph is for that person.. and that i dun wan that person to give a damn to my life.. becoz from the actions by that person, that person made me feel that we r not good frens.. mayb not even frens.. simple little actions means smth..
the 2nd one was in the last few paragraph that i wanna thank for everything from 190903 to 290407..
i'm reali not referring to u.. if u r mistaken that i wrote those nasty things to u.. dun think abt it okie.. how would i write such things abt u? i'm writing for another person.. we r hao peng you la! if u got any doubts.. u can ask me.. =)
i was reading newspaper juz now.. life is so unpredictable.. becoz of a small bite on the hand, can take one's life away..
reali hafta learn to kan kai.. though i keep thinking and zai yi of the things happened.. but time cannot turn back, am i going to let myself so miserable and keep living in the past?
i know i have to get over and remove the barriers.. but till now, i stil cannot.. i juz dun feel easy planning and doing all these.. becoz... actions speak louder den words.. wat i hear, and wat i c isnt the same.. how to bring myself to accept.. and comparsions is inevitable..
my mood haven been any better.. sometimes i reali dun feel like going to school.. sick of studying.. i wanna be like my sis.. cooping up in the house, taking care of my kids whole day long.. though is practically no life.. but.. at least.. i can enjoy my time with my love one..
been eating alot alot.. nv control my diet at all.. dun give a damn if i'm gaining weight.. though i keep complaining, i stil eat alot.. gorged myself with snacks and chocolates.. nuaing at home watching vcd..
but i have a goal now.. my short term goal.. to earn 1.5 before oct.. i've found my motivation, here i come !!
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