when i woke up ytd noon, mama told me.. "tmr ur er jie coming back alr, help her look after ger ger on sat so that she can go out la.."
i was wondering.. how come mama allow er jie to go out..? so willingly..?
no wonder.. da jie had a talk with mama, telling her how er jie was being "treated" at her home, and that she had to look after ger ger for whole day long alr.. that's y.. mama had allowed her to go out..
last sat, i had a talk with da jie.. it has been ages since we last sat down and had a chat tgt.. becoz i always felt the awkwardness towards da jie.. must be wondering y ther's awkwardness between sisters ya...
there was this period of time when the matter arise.. i blamed da jie.. becoz i thot da jie supposed to be Da Jie, the most sensible among us.. there's pressure i know.. but.. isnt the eldest one suppose to be our "model"?
mama had to worry for er jie, den have to worry for da jie.. sometimes late at night, mama couldnt get to slp.. and she would start to talk nonsense again.. all those "wat if".. she would start to have watery eyes, and couldnt control the weight of the water, they dropped as tears..
i duno how to console mama.. i duno how to talk to da jie.. in their eyes, i'm the youngest.. and i had no idea wat to do..
luckily all these are over.. it has been quite some time since i last saw "kummy".. blog had become the best tool to udst how a person feels.. da jie became a regular of my blog, and so did i become a regular of hers..
my memories for da jie.. it was before she moved out..
when we were the only 2 at home, we would nua until noon before we go for our 1st meal.. sometimes da jie would purposely skipped breakfast so that she would not get fat.. and so.. i followed her..
until noon.. we would go downstairs for our fav duck rice and come back nua again.. think is becoz she juz had her O levels, and wanted to take a short break before searching for jobs..
den when the misunderstanding comes, our sistership started to drift too..
my memories for er jie..
we would always quarrel and being the youngest me, da jie and er jie would gang up to bully me.. juz to c me cry out loud..
when she was in sec 3, she was seldom at home.. and my understanding towards er jie starts to disappear..
it was after she gave birth that pulls us close again.. coz she had her one month confinement at my place.. so.. we had time to communicate more..
and since then, she's back every week and talk cork with me..
luckily.. yu guo tian qing..
hopefully da jie and er jie can be back home tgt tmr..
3:31 PM -
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