all projects finally ended.. there is a revision lecture at 1 pm today.. supposingly, today will be my last day in sch except for exams.. but i dint turn up..
i accompanied wenjun for his wisdom tooth extraction.. hmm.. can sense that he could be nervous la.. if it was me, i think i would be scared more than anything else.. becoz it might be reali painful la..
den i waited for ard an hour, which i tot he would be out only in 2 hrs time.. he showed me his teeth.. and yucks.. it looks ermm.. teeth with blood lor.. lolz..
when he 1st came out, he dint feel any pain la.. coz it was numb le ah.. except that the saliva is drooling without giving signals..
on the way back, he need to hold his head high up in order to swallow the saliva.. i see le also heart pain ah.. coz it becomes more difficult for him to drive..
so i asked him to send me back to his house that bus stop, so that i can take bus home while he can rest early..
but i sat at the bus stop.. the bus arrived after 20 mins of waiting.. den i dint have the feel to board the bus.. so i juz stoned..
smsed with him.. den he told me the pain start to haunt him.. of coz i'm worried.. but i cant do anything.. so i juz waited until he tells me that he's no longer in pain den i can "leave in peace"..
stoned for an hr plus.. he forgot which medicine should be taken 1st or wat.. and so.. i went over to his place..
he took the antibotics, the painkiller and the one which prevents gastric pain.. the gauze inside his mouth was stil filled with blood.. i see le, i can do nth but at least to stay by his side la..
in total, i think he changed at least 3 times le.. i bet he muz be feeling very tired, but with the gauze inside his mouth, he was not able to sleep..
i went to take ice pack and put against his cheek, coz i thot it would be quite useful and i searched online, it was stated there also.. but he said he very gao wei.. den too bad lor..
he lied there, thot he was aslp.. but he was awaken by the pain in his mouth.. i see le reali heart pain la.. so i took the other 2 tablets for him.. it was supposed to be stronger la.. and of coz it turned out better becoz the pain started to go away..
and so.. i went off too..
shouldnt i be happy? logically, by right i should.. but.. i duno wat my mind is thinking.. i duno wat is my feeling.. i'm at a loss of wat i should do.. i cant differentiate wat is right and wat is wrong..
sometimes i thot my feelings and intuition were right.. but.. when it happened.. i felt like a complete idiot.. i duno if i'm doing is right.. i duno whether i should be doing all these.. i have no idea whether i can do it..
follow your heart.. but wat is my heart thinking? izzit correct if i follow my heart? but if i dun, wat will happen?
contradicting right? this is the feeling i got.. am i being too sensitive? over sensitive? irritating? wat-so-ever.. i will start to think alot esp in late nights when my eyes turned watery unknowingly..
juz now met up with my cousin.. he came to fetch me.. so sweet of him..
it has been quite some time since i sat on a bike.. the very last time should be.. with my papa ba..suddenly, i got the feel for "riding lessons" rather den "driving lessons"..
it can be romantic with only 2 person.. though i was with my cousin, not a bit of romance.. but.. if u were with ur loved one.. only the 2 of us.. so loving hor..
actually wanted to go somewher further.. but he needs to work tmr.. so we juz went to Bishan Park lor..
our cousin-ship were not that close last time.. but what brought us close? i dun reali rem alr.. mayb is all those teasings by me.. and we seems to click among all cousinz..
and now..
i think wat i need most is..
TIME
thank you yvonne, for accing me to beach road once again to buy those light sticks.. i know we are busy with our own stuff.. and i udst that you cant be with me physically.. but.. i know whenever i need you, you will be there for me.. thanks.. love you ~
thank you sherman and elaine, for helping me with the "surprise" at east coast park.. i know this is the 1st time sherman that you are doing this.. reali thank you two very much..
hearts