Tuesday, January 01, 2008 Y
2007 had finally came to an end.. the year wasnt easy for me at all.. throughout the year, there were countless of unhappy days..
i dint had an enjoyable bday.. relationship came to an end... friendship was at risk.. things were not any better at home.. i juz had a very tough 2007.. and i'm glad all these were over..
it was the 1st time i chased after a guy.. from the lightsticks.. to all the things i've bought for him.. like shirts.. ties.. Guess belt.. imported Man Utd Jacket.. the photo album.. and the LV key pouch all those.. every week was like your birthday..
i changed number.. dint intend to tell you.. but i reali did miss you.. i subscribed SCV with soccer channels.. i did whatever i could..
for 5 months.. i tried.. i failed.. but at least.. i've put in my very best effort..
this is the 1st time i ever chased after someone.. it isnt about the 500 plus i've spent on you.. it is about the effort and the time i've put in..
if you had no intention to get back together.. you shouldnt have told me that you got the wish to patch back with me..
if you had no intention to give me an answer.. you shouldnt have told me that you would give me an answer after your course of 4 days..
i see myself hanging there like a puppet.. waiting for you, waiting for your answer.. but you seems nonchalant about everything i did..
it isnt easy to get over everything.. it isnt easy for me to give up on you.. but you did help in some sense.. coz.. your attitude towards me..
"thanks" was the only word from you..
after all i did.. i could see that you have made your stand.. and i dun look forward to the day we will be back together again becoz is not possible..
we juz got to let go some of the things.. no more cryings, no more complainings.. we were both given 2nd chance.. but we dint know how to treasure them.. and once they are lost, we can never get them back again..
now 2007 had ended.. and my love for you had gone with 2007 too..
with all this.. i know i've grown up.. at least a little.. regarding decision making.. coz.. we shouldnt have "regrets" in our lives.. all these were learning process..
and i'm glad.. we once had this memories.. with wenjun.. with bitress.. we cant turn back time.. we can only look forward.. to move on..
but.. at least.. once in my life.. i had you.. i had you gers.. thanks..
wishing everything will go smoothly for me in 2008.. =)
i've met this guy when i was working in Kee Wah in sept.. he asked me out for lunch and i agreed..
he asked for my number.. but i gave him the puzzles to solve for my number.. and he used 2 nights to solve it..
we chatted in msn.. asked for my blog address.. again.. i came up with puzzles to let him guess..
for the 1st time, he sent me home.. i told him i wont like someone younger den me.. and i wont choose someone who haven go army..
i told him i was wooing back my ex-bf.. i asked him to give up.. i dint give him hope at all..
but.. he worked hard and carried on.. in many occasions.. he wanted to give up.. but he dint..
i placed my picture with wenjun in my room.. he saw.. he wasnt comfortable about it..
i had my big la bi xiao xin on my bed which was given by wenjun..
on his bday.. wenjun came to fetch me becoz i borrowed luggage from him.. he wasnt happy.. but he juz gotta accept..
when i returned from korea, i bought things for wenjun.. he felt sad but he cant do anything..
despite all these.. there were sure to be disappointments and sadness.. but he dint give up.. these 3 months time.. it was very tough for him.. instead.. he juz tried all means and ways to win my heart over..
he ran all the way to Cheers juz to buy me 2 more packets of prawn crackers juz becoz i said i dint had enough..
juz becoz i mentioned i dint have any zhong qiu jie's feel, he went to buy lanterns and candles.. juz to make it into heart shape for me..
i wanted to have mac breakfast.. juz for the mac breakfast, he would come down all the way from tampines before 11 am to have mac breakfast with me..
he would accompany me to school, even though my lesson starts at 8 am..
he was afraid i might be bored in korea, and therefore he had made 6 different cards for me to read on 6 different nights..
i dun need a boyfriend who's rich.. i dun need a boyfriend who's handsome.. i juz need a boyfriend who loves me, who knows how to appreciate me, dotes on me and cares for me..
i'm glad you dint give up on me..
thanks Jeffrey Ng..
loves.. =)
10:26 PM -
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